Apollo11. - Weight Lyrics

I'm not okay, even if it looks like I'm doing great
It's too hard to carry all of this weight
Feel like I'm dead under all of this weight
I wanted time to go get some things straight
Destroyed all my chances, broke every clean slate
Hard for me now to even operate
Knowing that I'm about ready to break
I'm not okay, even if it looks like I'm doing great
It's too hard to carry all of this weight
Feel like I'm dead under all of this weight
I wanted time to go get some things straight
Destroyed all my chances, broke every clean slate
Hard for me now to even operate
Knowing that I'm about ready to break

Suicidal thoughts traveling back and forth through my head
Fear of failure taking over, forcing me to watch how I tread
Sometimes I feel I might just be better off dead
Paging Kurt Cobain, drugs to help the pain
Do I wanna keep living instead, keep living instead
I cherish all that I've been given, but my life has always been too hidden
Quiet man on a quieter mission
No one ever came and gave me my props
Sitting in the corner, mind on the rocks
Contemplating how to get out this box
Can't escape cause it stays shut with 3 locks
(Ahhh)
No it's all in my brain, can't take it no more, gotta switch up the lane
Fighting it back and forth, think the cure is cocaine
Darker in the core with tainted blood in my veins
Shook me outta bed, put me on these meds
Pain scale outta 10, always been a 10, spasm now and then
Been lost in this gray, equal to a stray but I ain't the prey
Lost my right to say, can I really just try and take a break

I'm not okay, even if it looks like I'm doing great
It's too hard to carry all of this weight
Feel like I'm dead under all of this weight
I wanted time to go get some things straight
Destroyed all my chances, broke every clean slate
Hard for me now to even operate
Knowing that I'm about ready to break
I'm not okay, even if it looks like I'm doing great
It's too hard to carry all of this weight
Feel like I'm dead under all of this weight
I wanted time to go get some things straight
Destroyed all my chances, broke every clean slate
Hard for me now to even operate
Knowing that I'm about ready to break

Has there been a change
I been feeling kinda strange
And a little bit deranged
Got the rusty axe and chains
And I'm feeling kinda scared
I ain't ever held me back
Wanna make a better life, rather than relive my past where I
Been a slave of my own mind, need to unwind
(Been a slave of my own mind, need to unwind)
Man
All I done is get behind all of humankind
(Said all I done is get behind all of humankind)
I said I been a slave of my own mind, need to unwind
Been a slave of my own mind, need to unwind
(Been a slave of my own mind, need to unwind)
Yeah
All I done is get behind all of humankind
(Said all I done is get behind...)
Okay
Now it's back to my regularly scheduled program bitch
Now I'm thinking, I should've never ever gone and let you in
Got me monologuing about my boring life, it ain't got no twists
Got the blow and we drinking, bottoms up, slit the wrist
Yuh
(Woah woah woah chill, we ain't really doing that are we)

I'm not okay, even if it looks like I'm doing great
It's too hard to carry all of this weight
Feel like I'm dead under all of this weight
I wanted time to go get some things straight
Destroyed all my chances, broke every clean slate
Hard for me now to even operate
Knowing that I'm about ready to break