arch1e - i ruined a lot of great things Lyrics

I'm about to lose my mind, I can't stand and wait
I'm about to lose my mind
I'm about to lose control, I can't stand and wait
I'm about to lose my mind

I'm about to lose my mind, most the people around me died
Life is crazy, you don't even think like half the time
You don't know what you value most until it fades away for good
That's the reason that I try to make my people understood

Cause you could lose a friend or a brother in a second
You could lose your happiness all cause you was pretending
Nothing in this life's predictable, it's unexpected
You could lose your friends all because you got depression

You keep it bottled up behind your closed doors
Then you let it out in anger when all your emotions pour and
It's a thing that I can't seem to control
You're facing demons all the time, you're going toe to toe like

Oh shit, here we go again
You're losing all your hope, it's fading deep within
You grab the blade and cut a line just trying to feel something
But when you wake tomorrow, you'll be back to feeling nothing

I'm about to lose my mind, I can't stand and wait
I'm about to lose my mind
I'm about to lose control, I can't stand and wait
I'm about to lose my mind

I'ma spit some real shit so listen in close
I'm rapping bout the things I don't wanna disclose
I feel so insecure even in my own clothes
When they ask me for a picture, no I ain't gonna pose

I'm feeling different things and they won't even know
Cause I'll never open up cause I'd rather be alone
And I know that's bad to say cause I go against my own words
But I'd rather say I'm fine and they think that I don't hurt

Suicidal thoughts keeping me awake at night
Thinking bout my memories and how the time flies
All my friends are going out and partying all night
But I sit inside my room asking if I'm doing life right

That's right, think I need a night light
Demons to my left but when I look they on my right
Oh my, now my time has come I think it's my time to die
Don't say that you miss me cause you don't when I'm alive, damn

I'm about to lose my mind, I can't stand and wait
I'm about to lose my mind
I'm about to lose control, I can't stand and wait
I'm about to lose my mind