AreUkeOk - Family Name Lyrics

I've lost myself.
Without you the mirror has left me unclear and I'm seeing someone else.
Ooo I've seen where this path leads,
It's not where I'd like to be.
Yeah we're nearly the same,
Now all I see is you with my face in the frame
If I can't be sure that the ground I'm on is solid,
Then what's the point of my experience and knowledge?
Gotta break the family chain,
Gotta let it out my brain,
Can't be doing this again.
If we're fractured and torn by our misunderstandings,
Completely unborn cause living's too demanding for you,
Then what can I do?
When the fire and the flame engulfs our family name,
And we're damned to living under compression torsion and strain.
The pattern you've set is clear.
Cause I know at that time you were right here.
The same as me,
Meant to be.
Condemned are we, but tell me...
How can I set myself free?
How can I set myself free?
The past is a story of the present that's written,
But you didn't take the time to carry through the vision.
You didn't take the time to design a life where we could decide where our future lies.
Now you left me all alone...
Not exactly, but it never will be home
When you are gone so now I'm on my own.
Another pawn of masking my emotions.
(Leaving it unknown)
If I can't be sure that the ground I'm on is solid,
Then what's the point of my experience and knowledge?
Gotta break the family chain,
Gotta let it out my brain,
Can't be doing this again.
If we're fractured and torn by our misunderstandings,
Completely unborn cause living's too demanding for you,
Then what can I do?
When the fire and the flame engulfs our family name,
And we're damned to living under compression torsion and strain.
The pattern you've set is clear,
Cause I know at that time you were right here.
The same as me,
Meant to be,
Condemned are we,
But tell me...
How can I set myself-
Racing off, Racing thoughts,
Complaints of our mother.
Can't recall your face,
Burnt paper plates,
Was such a bad little brother.
Digging finger nails,
A broken screen,
Espresso driven apathy.
Compressing broken galaxies.
The bottles shatter at your feet.
Stuck inside,
Formaldehyde.
Yellow tape at the scene.
Neat folded piles,
A thousand miles,
The strength left depletes.
Can't complete cleaning messes when it's your blood at the scene.
Intervening broken messages,
Unfinished old routine.
Punch the wall,
Run out the door,
Condemned by a priest.
Still sat at the dinner table cause the plate isn't clean.
Lightning 'till it's done.
Broken locks, Forgotten fun.
In the dark the candles run out,
The door is fully gone now.
Fearing their concern.
Body issues return.
Knowing it'll hurt,
Picking scars creating burns.
The pages left unturned,
The fire that had burned them,
Too hot to return it so the message went unheard.
Just like her.
And all of the pain from all of my life...
I'm hearing it again.
That same melody,
Same simple line,
Of who I used to be.
But I'm not the same anymore.
Better than I was before.
Learned from the nightly chore,
On the bathroom floor where I'd lost the war.
I'd find my strength again,
Fight the blood and bones and loss left in my head.
Expect I'd be better than this,
Can't repeat can't repeat,
But I've been where I'd get.
You said don't be concerned, but the fire kept burning.
Can't wash away the hurt cause it's all that you left for me.
What's the purpose of empty contempt?
In the end if I could ask you anything...
(Just tell me)
If we're fractured and torn by our misunderstandings,
And we are unborn cause living's too demanding...
What can we do?
What can we do?
If we only give up is there any more use?
If I can't be sure that the ground I'm on is solid,
Then what's the point of my experience and knowledge?
Gotta break the family chain,
Gotta let it out my brain,
Can't be doing this again.
If we're fractured and torn by our misunderstandings,
Completely unborn cause living's too demanding for you.
But now what can I do?
When the fire and the flame engulfs our family name,
And we're damned to living under compression, torsion, and strain.
The pattern you've set is clear,
Cause I know at that time you were right here.
The same as me,
Meant to be,
Condemned are we,
But tell me...
Is it fate or can I break free?