The very roots of our development
Such a complex spectrum that we've been delving in
Every root, still unsure of once we get to them if
We should acknowledge them in remembrance
This is the curse of the adolescence
Still flirt with our evanescence
Just let it bleed
We all have until we're 17
Since the beginning of my adolescence
I've always asked this question
How can I attract a blessing?
And just through that came many lessons, and now I lessen
I feel dejected, discontent and disconnected
No disrespect but I'm not repenting, or even praying
What am I saying?
I've been constantly contemplating
Kamikaze to stop the lateness
If God could stop me then why's he waiting?
Probably plotting with lots of patience
Since I've been sinning with Satan
Adjacent to all my hatred awakened cause I'm complacent
To every bit of fakeness that's been vacant inside my cycle
With goals still taller than the Eiffel
Don't you pass me a rifle, I promise I'll see an eye full
Of blood, anything to get closer to a numb
Anything to get closer to my love
But none of these habits will bring me up above
So I digress
With all due disrespect, I feel like an orphan at best
Couldn't run to either shoulder, my troubles they'll never get
Especially if they caused them
Disguised attacks with their love but that ain't honest
No aftermath I combust inside their lava, face-first and I'm falling
No way I could dodge them, wait I'm feeling nauseous
Every single flame made its way to my brain
Can't tell if it's inner passion or a monster
But I'm sure I'll find a way to defeat it
Still trying yeah you better believe it
Had to peak in the mirror and realize that every demon that I've been seeing's
Just a product of me and let's just agree I had to humanize the tensai
And balance out all the truth and lies, it's do or die
Surprised that I'm still even alive, like what is suicide?
Who am I?
It's all a blur to me
It's all a blur to me
It's all a blur to me
It's all a blur to me
It's all a blur to me
It's all a blur to me
So enter the void
Where every piece of me is kept and destroyed