Time For A Change Video (MV)

I think it's time for a change
Before I drive myself insane
Playing all these tricks in my brain
Stayed in my lane
Cause I didn't want to change
So when it never gets better I got nobody but myself to blame
Taking that old route
I already know where this goes
That shit really getting old
So when I get to the crossroads
Take a right, run for your life and never look back
It's time for a change
Can't go back to that old path
I've been throwing back the liquor
For as long as I remember
I've been trying to forget her
By pretending I don't miss her
Wishing that I never met her
Maybe then I would feel better
When I should've switched it up
I just poured another cup
When I was doing all of that spending
And my momma started tripping
I wish that I would've listened
Should've done a little different
But my dumb ass didn't listen
I just kept on f*cking spending
When I should've saved it up
So I could fix my f*cking truck
Now I'm looking at the choices that I made
Sitting here wishing that I had more control of my brain
Maybe I should listen to them doctors and just take them f*cking pills
Maybe then I'll have more control of my free will
Maybe then I wouldn't be putting myself through hell
Maybe then I wouldn't wish that I was somebody else
Maybe then I'd put the cup down and listen to momma
Maybe then I'd spare myself of all of the drama
That I
Gotta face every day
New day, New fake smile on my face
Pretend I'm okay
While I go about my day
Every day I feel so cold
While I spiral out of control
I'm just going through the motions
I don't feel no emotion
But my mind tells me every day that we'll never be happy
Yeah my mind tells me every day my life forever crappy
Cause one minute I wanna change
Next minute, wanna stay the same
I feel like I'm going insane
While my mind's playing games
I think it's time for a change
Before I drive myself insane
Playing all these tricks in my brain
Stayed in my lane
Cause I didn't want to change
So when it never gets better I got nobody but myself to blame
Taking that old route
I already know where this goes
That shit really getting old
So when I get to the crossroads
Take a right, run for your life and never look back
It's time for a change
Can't go back to that old path
Now all my friends done started switching
Telling all my f*cking business
Had me hated I was tripping
Went from family to some bitches
Solo dolo I'll be kicking
You want my trust? You can't forget it
That shit really f*cked me up
So I had to switch it up
But now I'm always all alone
And I'm so damn far from home
Tried to find where I belong
Everywhere I looked was wrong
Bipolar depression is strong
And my motivation's gone
I keep trying to get up
But I drown in another cup
When my mind is put to the test
You'll find me with bourbon for breath
I think that my liver dead
Wishes from the voices in my head
So hard to get out of bed
Afraid of what might come next
Oh lord I need some saving
But I think he lost his patience
I've been torturing myself for so damn long
That I don't even remember where it all went wrong
Convinced myself that normal happiness is what I'll never deserve
Now I'm too accustomed to the hurt
But now it's time for a change
Before, I put a bullet through my brain
I hate feeling this way
I feel I'm going insane
I keep bending till I break
With a mask on my face
Pretending that I'm okay
I don't wanna live this way
So I started praying to my father
For hakuna matata
Started doing the work
Took myself right back to church
Almost a year later and I'm feeling brand new
And God I owe all of my thanks to you