As the City Sleeps - Constant Source of Disappointment Lyrics

An itching thought forever haunts me
Never to be shut out
When will they realize I'm nothing
But someone others always doubt
My misery results from failure
And the wasted hours spent
Wond'ring when a cure is coming
For mending resentment
There are times when I just
Wish my life was mine
It's tearing me apart inside
I wish I could run and hide
But never will I go astray
From the hateful words they say
Bruised my skin with expectations
As my mind dissolves away
There will be no moments to resent
Constantly a disappointment
Time and time again I falter
Without both'ring to get up
Why would I attempt to change things
When it's all just a setup
The destination is apparent
No escaping from this place
My life is planned and so I play it
Play it safe like a disgrace
I keep telling myself
Everything is fine
It's tearing me apart inside
I wish I could run and hide
But never will I go astray
From the hateful words they say
Bruised my skin with expectations
As my mind dissolves away
There will be no moments to resent
Constantly a disappointment
All I wanna do is make them happy
But my own self worth is lost
Maybe I should toss the towel in
Give it up but at what cost?
Losing and becoming something smaller
Cannot be a choice to make
So then hoping high and aiming taller
Is a risk that I will take
It's tearing me apart inside
I wish I could run and hide
But never will I go astray
From the hateful words they say
Bruised my skin with expectations
As my mind dissolves away
There will be no moments to resent
Constantly a disappointment
There will be no moments to resent
Constantly a disappointment