Ashley River - Fire to Blame Lyrics

I kept you warm from the smallest flame
You used me for heat
But where were you when I was cold
Because my desires took the backseat

And when the world went dark and you couldn't see
You used me for light
But where were you when I was hidden
And I lost my oracular sight

You wanted to get higher
So you used me as stairs
But where were you when I couldn't reach
And I was left with only my prayers

I was your muse for destruction
I was your clarity through the haunted fog
But god forbid I speak my longings
And pour them out into howling song

Because you only had my fire to blame

How many times now have you said my name in vain
I know you love the sound of your own voice
But where were you when I needed to speak
Or when i was ready to reclaim my own choice

I somehow became your mother
You needed somewhere to feed
But where were you when I held new life
When I fated myself to carry your seed

I was your goddess when it was convenient
I was your anchor through your inner storm
But god forbid I speak my truth
The truth i needed to keep myself warm

But you only had my fire to blame

Its ok that we weren't a match
I never really liked the sound of you
But it will serve you to set me free
And simply be the woman who

Only had her fire to blame