Ashley Sadiqova - History (demo) Lyrics

Spent time and energy
Lost so much already
All I do is worry
Thinkin' about history
Did I do bad
Will I get punished
Did I fail
Will I, lose it all
My mind lost
In a deep, tense space
Fears block all the joy in me
I don't wanna be my own enemy
Imagine how happy I could be

My childhood brings back memories
Couldn't leave the past behind
I made peace with history
I'm ready to be happy this time
No matter how hard this road will be
I'll remember to love myself first
I'll never forget my history
It will always be a part of me

Trauma's, mental issues
Got an early preview
No matter what I do, I get so confused
Made a u-turn
Went back to where I'm from
I will fight for my freedom
I've been a refugee, don't come for me
Worked hard for a spot in society
I've earned my succes
I've earned my spot
Nobody gonna tear my life apart

My childhood brings back memories
Couldn't leave the past behind
I made peace with history
I'm ready to be happy this time
No matter how hard this road will be
I'll remember to love myself first
I'll never forget my history
It will always be a part of me

Tired of feeling guilty
Thinking It's all my fault
While all I do is love, care
Try not to fall
I'm praying every night
Feeling blessed for all the things I've got
I shouldn't feel ashamed
Of the person I've become
My momma raised a strong child
With a loving heart
I deserve happiness, yeah
Not days full of darkness, no

My childhood brings back memories
Couldn't leave the past behind
I made peace with history
I'm ready to be happy this time
No matter how hard this road will be
I'll remember to love myself first
I'll never forget my history
It will always be a part of me