Ashleyanna K. - Marionette Lyrics

Every now and then I see your face upon my wall
What are you doing here? Are you trying to stall?
I'm lying to myself, it's been so long since that call
But somehow I can't forget though I gave it my all
I've long since found a lover who wants me to be me
When I'm under the covers, that's when I feel most free
But you know me well enough that I'm sure you'd agree
I have a hard time letting go, that much I'm starting to see, oh

Am I the victim, or am I the cause?
I've asked that question so much that I don't even pause
I'm connected to you and I just can't let go
So many songs that I've written about that faded afterglow, woah

No one told me it would be this damn hard
I'm betting that you're forgetting me
While you left me scarred
I can't seem to leave it behind,
It's in my mind, I focus on the grind
But deep down I know I really wanna to find
Some peace
You're no longer a part of me
Haunting my dreams but
I swear that's all you are to me
The you that keeps appearing
Isn't who you are now
Stop thinking, drinking myself to sleep,
I wonder how
How are you doing?
Better? Worse?
Do you think about me?
Is this a singular curse?
How long will this go on?
How many days left of seeing this?
I'm begging you, egging you on,
I'm really torn it's you that I miss
Vying and trying and crying, letting it go
It's a slippery slope,
How much I wanna forget
Buying, denying, I'm lying, that much I know
There's a sliver of hope,
Was I your marionette?

Am I the victim, or am I the cause?
I've asked that question so much that I don't even pause
I'm connected to you and I just can't let go
So many songs that I've written about that faded afterglow
Was it you all along?
All I ask is where did I go wrong
On your throne
I'd accept every stone
I'm holding it back, but you know the truth
It's so hard to stop myself from wanting you