3AM Freestyle Video (MV)

Um, I don't know what really did it for me but it was confusing at the time
I was lost
I didn't know what I was doing was right or wrong
I feel like you always had this dream of making a big in music
Like, I've had this talent to freestyle for a while but I never knew id be shit
Cause of it
Like, I just wanted to do this shit so I could help the youth
Like, we're at a really troubling place right now
We're all on something
Like, I feel like everybody's addicted to something
I just want to help everybody
I feel like violence and drugs are the only way people want to live their life
But we only got one shot
I spit the truth in the booth because I cut a couple of screws up in my head loose
And at the end of the day, I'm just a kid making music in this room
The constant and consistent thoughts of my doom
This shit feel like a paradox
My feet feel like a Pair of rocks weigh me down pound for pound
My face so high off the ground
They say I can't rap because I'm white
But the Jack Harlow Lil Peep and Eminem can do it
I don't gotta think twice
I'm just rapping to make a right
I want to help kids through the night
I was lost, scared, and confused
Constantly feeling used
I lost all my remorse
My head was torn
I didn't know what emotions to show
Then I hit my glow
And then they hit my phone
Asking, you want another chance
I said, nah, bitch
I'd rather dance to the devil
At least I'd have the fact of my head being level
My lungs so heavy, you'd think that they're metal
And I'll put the pedal to the metal
Because I'm destined to be great
I'll spit a bar on every take
And a tear on every song
I know I'm one step closer
No matter what I say, I'll make an impact
I want to be the kid that makes that shit last
I just want to help people with my whole heart
I ain't know how to feel in the start
And I know that people don't know where to go right now
So how am I supposed to help them if they ain't being safe and sound
I gotta preach my message to the youth
Because they're troubled at the moment
Yeah, they think that gun which they tote is gonna save their life
But in reality, they gotta get out of the situation they in
They threw their heart in the bin ten years ago
Now they're just a shell of who they used to be
I understand that
Because I'm just a shell of who I used to be
Because of how many people used me
I gotta tell these kids that nothing comes for free
Because clearly their parents ain't doing it
And this generation clearly we losing it
We need some help
But nobody want to reach their hand out
I spit the truth in the booth
Because I cut a couple of screws up in my head loose
And at the end of the day, I'm just a kid making music in this room
Constantly gets his thoughts in my doom
This shit feel like a paradox
My feet feel like a pair of rocks
Put me down pound for pound
My face so hot off the ground
They say I can't rap because I'm white
But Jack Harlow, Lil Peep, and Eminem can do it
I don't gotta think twice
I'm just rapping to make a right
I wanna help kids through the night
I was lost, scared, and confused
Constantly feeling used
I lost all my remorse that's God's honest truth
I can feel it in my chest
The devil chasing this generation
Yeah
And there's demons all up in our heads
Soon we all gonna end up dead
We gon' die to violence and drug use
Cause these streets too polluted
We too used to this shit
Rapping about the future
Got that boy Juice hooked
And now we dead in a coffin
Rest in peace
And rest in peace my boy Tyler
Who passed away from the influence
Yeah this generation losing our innocence
And in a sense you could say that it's just our ignorance
We put a light on drugs and thugs
But really we should be talking about the real shit
Feel like nobody enjoy their life
They all just up to the devil's sacrifice
Running in the streets
This a life you can't get past
And you can't defeat
Unless you the 1%
And I wanna help the 99% that can't get past it
With every bone in my body
And every dollar in my bank account
I'ma make it happen