ASTRAL MILE - Standing Frozen Lyrics

"Have you learned your lesson?", the Old Man keeps whispering
Maybe I'm just restless, or maybe I don't know anything at all
The coffee cup's growing cold
How many hours have gone?
The staff keep on staring, with disdain in their eyes
Trapped by the window, I'm waiting for a sign
'Cause I'm lost here, so
Could you please let me know
What am I doing here?
What is my answer here?
The end of a chapter of a life
That I'd found no comfort in
Yet here I am, frozen
Afraid of leaving all of it behind
Tell me, Old Man
Why I am living
Once in a while, I get told of tyranny
And flashbacks take me back to times when I'd let my own anger free
So, how can I atone for it?
Who do I ask to forgive?
The third cup of coffee is also getting cold
I can't wake my feet up to keep moving along!
As I still recall
The ones that I had hurt moved on
So what am I doing here?
Am I only good for fear?
The end of a chapter of a life
That I'd found no comfort in
Yet here I am, frozen
Afraid I'm still missing important signs
Tell me, Old Man
Why I am living
The Scales of the Judge reappear as I'd feared
Balancing it out, like a pat on my shoulder, it drew me near
Justice be brought to -- not wrought upon -- you, dear
Like lifting a long-forgotten burden
It spilled out my tears
I was lost, so gone
Holding out for others' wants
What am I doing here?!
Forgetting to love myself, of fear
The end of a chapter of a life
I'd lost sight of dreams within
I'm standing here, frozen
The Unknowable still beckons me!
I
I get it, Old Man: I
Am living!