Ataraxia - Chemical Witch Lyrics

I can remember
A steady rush of air through the space around me
The space around me
So distant, so cold
So far within the unknown inside my head
Thinking I'd be better off dead

I wonder what it meant to me
I let it speak to me at night
And drag me down below the covers
Play hide and seek with the trust of others
And now it's here to stay

Only a liar
Could ever hope to make amends
Behind closed doors
(Behind those doors)
It's only just enough
To get us through just one more day
But is it strength?
Will I pay?

I wonder what it meant to me
I watched you catch the falling stars
And let them sing me to the shadows
Without a thought for things that follow
I gave it all away

While the sky burns ever darker
Colours fly above my head
Force dreams into my eyes
While I wish they're real instead
And the sunrise turns to sunset
And I'm held captive in this need
Watching silence turn to shadows
While she waits to see me bleed

I've dragged blades across my flesh
And let it heal
(I've let it heal)
And now I leave myself asking how
How your hands hurt below the skin
How your words couldn't be figured out

I wonder what it meant to me
I laid awake and tried to hide
How everything just made my mind race
With all the questions I could find
And through the turmoil I could feel it
That I did at least one thing right

While the sky burns ever darker
Colours fly above my head
Force dreams into my eyes
While I wish they're real instead
And the sunrise turns to sunset
And I'm held captive in this need
Watching silence turn to shadows
While she waits to see me bleed

While she waits to see me bleed
While she waits to see me bleed
While she waits to see me bleed
While she waits to see me bleed