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I'm out of ideas, no way I can go
Nothing is right, everything's wrong
This travesty has me in its grip
I feel I'm on the edge, every moment I could slip
Convince me I'm not worthless
I'm tiptoeing on this fine line
Convince me I have purpose
Show me some of the good life
I know I should embrace it
But despise myself with every fiber
What I see inside me
But I doubt that I can achieve this
I want to see reason, I want to make sense
To rid this reflection of the one I hate
Can't run from a shadow attached to myself
A picture of loathing that laughs at itself
Keep running in circles
I keep falling deeper
In this hole of endless despair
I try to resist it
But fighting just makes it worse
I'm set on fire by thoughts coursing through my mind
I see a light of a train about to crash with me
I hold on tight in hope not to lose my grip
Nowhere in sight is the haven that they promised me
The monsters come back from under my bed
Oh no it happens again
I'm shaking, trembling, please let this end
Go forth, go back
Or just stand still, I created my own hell
To drown this wreck of self-esteem, oh!
Would it make a difference if you knew the reason?
Would it make a difference if you knew the answer?
It wouldn't change a thing, just leave you disappointed
I'm set on fire by thoughts coursing through my mind
I see a light of a train about to crash with me
I hold on tight in hope not to lose my grip
Nowhere in sight is the haven that they promised me