The Atlas State - Smaller Than Ever Lyrics

Before my heart was black as an adder
I used to think that I could
Climb the ladder, and reach new heights
That I had never dreamed
But then I found myself
And realised
My heart was darker than ever

And when I lay myself on a platter
I like to think that I feel
Adoring gaze, and endless praise
For all I've ever done
But then I saw myself
And realised
That I was smaller than ever

Well I could say it's not my fault
I'm not as great as I like to think I am
Even Narcissus spent less time looking in the mirror
Than I

And when I brace myself for the weather
It seems that I prefer
The storms and rain, and windy plains
To summers with the bees
And when I drowned myself
I realised
That I was sadder than ever

And when I'm at the end of my tether
It seems that I can cause
The kinds of strains, and toxic pains
That I could never stand
And when I ground myself
I realise
That I am madder than ever

Before my heart was black as an adder
I used to think that I could
Climb the ladder, and reach new heights
That I had never dreamed
But then I found myself
And realised
My heart was darker than ever

And when I lay myself on a platter
I like to think that I feel
Adoring gaze, and endless praise
For all I've ever done
But then I saw myself
And realised
That I was smaller than ever