Aura Kill - Obvious Damage Lyrics

You gone but we still speakin'
You're the reason that I blacked out all last weekend
Spent years of my life up all night tweakin'
You left 'cause you felt weak
Put that needle in your arm and gave the pain to me
Who I become
You'll never get to see
You're the worst memory I try not to feed
For this music and this dream I'm glad to bleed
You never taught us much
So I guess the vision was inside of me
I'm not gonna put this on luck
The day you died you told us that you just don't give a f*ck
I guess being a mother just ain't as good as drugs
Now you hit every relationship with a slew of issues with trust

The past is still trying me
And you furthered sibling rivalry
Me Noah and Ashleigh still struggle with anxiety
And we all barely speak
And we all have our own crude abusive tendencies
And it makes me sick that you'll never know what it is that you did to me
Left me and my brother to a stranger one addict to the next
Two kids with no tools to manage their stress
And he hated me so much I thought that I'd be better dead
An emotional punching bag walking on eggshells
A father who should be helping with my mental
But he's got coke to sell
If he's not busy making my life a living hell
When I was 23 I tried to kill myself
'Cause in these memories I still sit and dwell

You gone but we still speakin'
You're the reason that I blacked out all last weekend
Spent years of my life up all night tweakin'
You left 'cause you felt weak
Put that needle in your arm and gave the pain to me
Who I become
You'll never get to see
You're the worst memory I try not to feed
For this music and this dream I'm glad to bleed
You never taught us much
So I guess the vision was inside of me
I'm not gonna put this on luck
The day you died you told us that you just don't give a f*ck
I guess being a mother just ain't as good as drugs
Now you hit every relationship with a slew of issues with trust

I can't blame you forever
And the days been gettin' better
But I'll always hate the fact we can't spend a day together
I know I'm angry
But I'll always have a lot of love
I personally understand that life can be tough
I wish I didn't care so much
But I'm totally overlaying back and giving up
I know you're not here
But I'll build something special just for us
I'm practicing forgiveness
So I think I'll start here
Be thankful I get to see you when I'm looking in that mirror
Be brave since you spent your life in fear
Be grateful for the strength in every single tear
Maybe call my dad
He probably just had the days first beer
And I'm a forgive him too
Since he didn't disappear
Talk about how we miss you and how we all wish you were here