Austin Luke - Down Under Lyrics

I'll go ahead and tell you right now
This beat sounds like heaven
But it hurts like hell
Yeah
See what hurt me most as a kid
Was lookin' in the mirror think I look like shit
Roamin' round the halls with no attention never quits
I was searchin' for acceptance getting' none of it
4 years later, graduated, then dropped out of college
Feeling stupid, couldn't make it, see I got it honest
Wish I fell in love and got attention like the rest
But instead I lay awake in bed and never rest
Turned to nicotine and finding feelings in a bottle
But its only hitting harder when I'm at the bottom
Scary thoughts been bringing in the pain I know I got 'em
Seems like every day I'm making up a different problem
Everybody has a time when they wish they were numb
Even Jesus was a human I bet he had some
I'll admit all my sinful ways were stupid fun
But they're only getting worse until my time has come
So while you've been out and hanging with your friends
I've been counting down the seconds 'til depression ends
The other day I went out in public I was stressin' all these other people probably judging me Cause maybe I ain't kept up with the latest trends
Or maybe it's cause I don't drive a Benz
See the word in side my lens and you might feel the pain
You probably don't know how it feels to think that you're insane
Or how it feels to get excited when outside it rains
Cause the sky is cryin' with you and you feel accepted
Always stress about the stupid shit my heart is unprotected
I know all my actions will eventually catch up with me
But they're helpin' get rid of the hurt that's stickin' w me
Heard a doctor say there's no such thing as depression
Only how you feel with all the things in your possession
Well if that was true then tell me how the f*ck to breathe?
Cause I'm counting down the days until it's time to leave
I'm feeling down under