Autumn's Passage - Half Turned Smile Lyrics

You didn't want any happiness from me
That's made so clear
Just a pawn in the saddest game you'll see
You know I'll fall
It's so hard when the here and now won't go away
I shut my eyes
I wish I could shut it out but your face won't leave as I wish for this to end

As I break down perfectly
And do the things the way you want me
And as I see your half turned smile
I realise that this is it for me

I can't stand this trial
I am so in denial
While you burn the file whistling happy tunes
You sit for a while
And stare in your style
Oh god there's that smile breaking like a noose