AV-8 - Hopioid Lyrics

I never pictured myself becoming numb to all of the pain
Had to find a way to paint the pictures with illustrious rain
There's lust and trust issues combusting in the brain
I'm stuck in this lane and starting to see the rust in the chains
I know it's deranged; so I ain't really gonna complain
Face to face with all these obstacles, not going to refrain
But all these chains still hold me down; don't know if I can contain
This bestiality mentality that I've been trying to constrain
It's tough to keep it moving forward without some interruption
When every time I turn my head, all I see is corruption
So I don't want to speak too much or hear your introductions
I barely got any friends, and I rarely speak to much of my kin
So honestly, I don't want to hear your discussions
When every damn day, I still deal with the repercussions
I wish that I could say that this was just another phase
But I've been caught up in this haze and can't keep track of the days

Every day I keep on looking for another way to cope
But every time my head's up, still feels like I'm falling down a slope
I'm gonna keep on going although my hope is destroyed
I don't know what I've become; it's like I'm numb off the opioid
Every day I keep on looking for another way to cope
But every time my head's up, still feels like I'm falling down a slope
I'm gonna keep on going although my hope is destroyed
I don't know what I've become; it's like I'm numb off the opioid

Depersonalization and sudden realizations
Have to fuel with my frustration to deal with all these obligations
Shit is moving so fast, and I'm losing a grip of my patience
And a grip of my mentality; slowly becoming a mental patient
No, I'm not going to vent and I'm not going to pretend
That there's nothing wrong with my head while I'm stuck trying to ascend
Had some homies on the same path that were destined to crash
And kept trying to come back in my life and itching on me just like a rash
Most with false promises, like getting a little bit of cash
But when you try to go and save it, it ends up gone in a flash
Even with those that kept it real, its hard for me to go and stay attached
So I stay to myself regardless; its really hard not to be heartless
Just isn't worth my time to go and hang around all of these leeches
I keep on walking all alone, I aint got time to be preaching
I'm still learning some lessons from stressing; very seldom blessings
And I'm not sure if I'll learn them all by the time that I'm resting

Every day I keep on looking for another way to cope
But every time my head's up, still feels like I'm falling down a slope
I'm gonna keep on going although my hope is destroyed
I don't know what I've become; it's like I'm numb off the opioid
Every day I keep on looking for another way to cope
But every time my head's up, still feels like I'm falling down a slope
I'm gonna keep on going although my hope is destroyed
I don't know what I've become; it's like I'm numb off the opioid