ava rose - white flag Lyrics

I go to bed so I don't think about what you said last night
'Cause if I stay awake one more minute it'll consume my mind
And I know you didn't mean for your words to linger around
But I'm convinced that when a tree falls there is always a sound
Wish I could manifest a backbone in the nick of time
Then maybe I'd see some truth in saying everything's fine
But for now I'll just keep carrying on this way
And maintain the mindset that tomorrow's a new day
And every word I've ever heard has made a home in my heart
And every chance it gets it's pulling me back to the start
They take form from yours and become my own
And they're on repeat every single second I'm alone
I look in the mirror everything comes flooding back
It's engrained deep in my brain, constantly under attack
And there's no way that I'm escaping what's been done
I concede, I wave my white flag while you've only begun
If only younger me had invested in thicker skin
She'd probably have set us forth in a better way to begin
I believed in a world where words don't sharpen the blade
But I've yet to live in one where my heart hasn't decayed