Axela LF - Absent (Chopped and Screwed) Lyrics

I apologize
I haven't been there many times
I know you called me when you needed me and I hung up on that line
I know you needed a man and that you got caught up on my lies
I got caught up on this music shit, but this music shit's my life
I admit, this shit is no excuse
It's just always been a reason that I ain't mean to misuse
Tried to talk to you about it, but you sure got a short fuse
When you mad at this life, there ain't no reasoning with you
But that ain't your fault
If it's anyone's, it's mine
I wish that we could re-do all this shit just one more time
I'm steady making music just hoping someday you'll hear it
Tried to bring you into this life, but you don't wanna be nowhere near it
I've been selfish as f*ck, yeah I know, since day one
It's never been about you, only been 'bout what I want
I'm trying to change those way, I'm trying to tell you how I'm feeling
If it wasn't for you, girl, this life wouldn't even be worth livin', nah