The N Word Video (MV)

I don't need a substance
To sustain myself
I don't need distractions
To distract my pain
To not self ache
From another pain
I don't need a hookup
To forget your face
Or somebody else
I don't need avoiding
Or some smell
Or a certain place
That could trigger memories of
Something sweet or lame
Or bump into your head
I don't need disguises
I don't need excuses
Just to blow you off to not see you
When I actually do want to see you
But I'm scared, but also well prepared
For what I'd never see you again
Because after this, after you bring what belongs to me
You might just walk away out of the coffee shop
And I might head outside
And cause another f*cking scene

Cause I'm a fool, a f*cking jerk
Who can't control his f*cking shit
And try to rip off my stupid goddamned head
I know it turns you off
When I self-deprecate
And then it happens once again
I throw you off
We both freak out
Screaming loud
Our stubborness
I must confess
Dramatics makes me what I do
Irrational
Hysterical
But not this time
I will not fight
I'll let you go
I will this time
Anyways it was too soon to think this gal
Could be my f*cking wife
Love of my life
The sweetest piece of apple pie
With brown sugar
Oh my f*ck, just f*cking stop
I'm not insane
I'm not this lame

I'll concentrate to what I've said
I don't need shit for anything

I just want a f*cking drink
A goddamned taste of sweet amber
Of bitter ale
And cheap ass beer

I just want a f*cking lay
More than a wank
Sweet lady flames
With pussy shapes
And different names

Don't say thy name
Forget that shit
It's a wicked word
Like voldemort
Will only hurt
Pass that beer
And pour some wine
No need to whine about her life
Cause I've got mine
I don't need coke
Inside my nose
Or any dope that rolls and numbs
My pain and state of half content

Will do me good and bring me hope
In fact
I don't need to worry more
It's too bothersome
When nothing matters anymore
Just hit the road
And wait for things to be more dull
I won't feel empty
Or feel full
I'm not that fool
I'm not that tool
That serenates her house with
Broken-hearted songs
Laments and poems
I'm just a weirdo
For now I'm good