Barefoot Gen - Petaluma (feat. Jo Uska) Lyrics

I'm just searching for a remedy
Cuz sipping Hennessy was only putting an end to me
I failed to realize that the enemy was just my inner me
I lost a sense of entity, I'm hell bent so heaven won't you send for me?
Do it gently though cuz my mental is broke
So why not overdose to Mary with coke?
Cannot feel hope so I'm not overflowing with quotes
This the last thing I wrote
Since the past song hit the studio
Shit wasn't beautiful
I lost the spirit to believe in it
Though, I'm back to spit more
With the gang weeders to crack ya windows
Sonics loud enough to give you crackhead symptoms
And me? I be actually numb
And hacking at the system
Cause I'm a rapper, feels like it's a milli-to-one
But there's a billion doing the same shit
So if I'm on the microphone
Best believe imma go apeshit
Patience, gotta shake shit up like the Haitians
Breaking through with makeshifts
Take it to a space gig
If I ain't tryna go that big I might as well just dip
It's all relative, to how imma start selling shit
Money for my relatives
Money to get into shit
Money runs the world
It's the reason why hell exists
But there's more to it
The pain is gorgeous
Man who taught you shit?
That joy is in the pit of me?
You a toy to them can't you see?
Employed cuz your energy aligns
With theirs like a symmetry
Don't wanna be another pawn lost in history
Don't wanna wake up
And repeat the scheme
Just tryna reach nirvana to put an end to me
That's the fundamental, what I call my f*cking dream
And am I just another asshole?
And if so, can you pardon me?
Cuz lately my heart's been hard to see
And I didn't mean to hurt you, baby
I didn't mean to ride circles around you till you started exasperating
When you ended up in the hospital
Thought I could've lost you, bruh
Don't know what that would've meant
Perhaps a home imprisonment,
So just let me astral ascend outta this hazardous f*cking master villain
Fall on me and you'll always be, my girl
Living in the world
Fall on me and you'll always be, my girl
Living in the world
Going in dry
Zoning your life
Don't even lie
Driving my best friend's Audi
He think he might crash and die
Lil gooks just turned 29
Too much
See no more
See no more on bouff
Leave 'em on Southside
Can't see she's mine
Can't she see mine?
Can't see she's mine
Can't she see mine?
(Tripping my gook is on lean
Blowing this up, smithereens)
My baby loves me
And it's really special
I might have to leave her
And it really kills me
Cus I'm her tank
And she's a glass-canon
I can take her blows
I'll protect her from all the world
Lost his mind
He ain't got no goals, no goals
Girlfriends lies
Out of town with that guy
Few months past
This girl ran off with her boy no surprise
Who surprised
2015 Jo getting into lotta shit
Wasting lotta time
Spending bread
On some useless shit
On some useless friend
Spend it all
Huh
Adderall
Pop it all
Driving fast
Then he crashed
Almost died
Lost his life