Barz Banga - Vibe Lyrics

It's just different
I'm a vibe cause I stayed alive
So true
You look in my eyes and you see a drive
So strong
When you would've contemplated suicide
Facts
So did I
Barz Banga

When it rain, I rejoice, I ain't have a choice in the matter B
Before celebrities added me, I was in the academy, living something that's sad to see
Come back, let's go to Brooklyn, before the kids was tooken
She's smoking what they cooking
Can't blame her, she a victim, I blame her
Like, Ma, why the hell did you stay with him?
In fact, Uncle Leon, he coming through strapped
Like what you did to my sister, giving every bruise back
I was cheering from the sidelines
But she walked back to him on a fine line

I guess I'm just a vibe
I guess I'm just a vibe
I guess I'm just a vibe
I guess I'm just a vibe

Long Island living, got a big yard
But that don't mean shit because I miss my moms
Miss them Brooklyn nights on the fire escape
Marvin Gaye singing, daddy found a vein
This your foster mother, this is what's his name
First day there, felt something strange
Really couldn't put my finger on it
Much different from Brooklyn so I didn't linger on it
First night, playing video games in sleep clothes
He put his hand on my dick and I froze
Ten years old, I'm like a tadpole
This asshole making me think of something I chose
Who the f*ck I'm gonna tell
Who the f*ck gonna believe me, I duck in my shell
In school, excel, I don't wanna go home
Knife to my wrist, the blood cover the chrome
Thoughts cover the dome, they begging me to talk
All I know is my mommy is somewhere in New York
I hop on the L-I-R-R to find
Not thinking that I left my little brother behind

I guess I'm just a vibe
I guess I'm just a vibe
I guess I'm just a vibe
I guess I'm just a vibe

You ain't give him a chance and you took his life
Took my future grands and you took his wife
Took any chance for him to fight back
Last thing he said is I'll be right back
You know what it's like to get a death call
She told you such lies and you believed it all
Followed to the letter, didn't once think
That you could destroy a family in one blink
My baby boy was my best friend
Everyday with him has been a blessing
And what you did won't make him less than
I pray that someday you'll learn a lesson
You took away something so great
And your life ruined at such a young age
What a way to make the front page
Now my whole life changed over dumb rage
All I can do is pray
I got nothing left to say
There ain't enough time that they can give you
For what you have to live through, just know I forgive you

I guess I'm just a vibe
I guess I'm just a vibe
I guess I'm just a vibe
I guess I'm just a vibe