I constantly feel it, your reassuring presence
This perpetual threat
Bringer of lies
With poisoned cells
The rotten wood hidden under the tempting bark
Which crumbles when my gaze lingers long enough
Your tricks lull my thoughts in the direction of the current
Until you dream of swallowing me
I totally belong to you
Metastasis, my cursed and faithful shadow
You make me want to escape from my own skin
It's both comfortable and unbearable
Your smile burns me, the corners of your lips stretch to infinity
Jubilant with cruelty and delight in my impassive distress
Doomed to inaction
A room without exit, brilliant of vacuum
The only one who will never abandon me
Who masks my solitude, puts reality to sleep
A magnificent face of protective illusions
My reason to live, my reason to die
In the slow euthanasia you wove for me