Better Now - Pitchfork Lyrics

I keep wasting energy trying to run
But I can't seem to get a step ahead
And I'm scared again

And I cry the biggest breath screaming hard but no ones there
My voice has gone out, and my body breaks down
Am I a threat to myself, while telling everyone else I'll be fine
But still at night I try to sleep
Screaming voices in my dreams
Can you hear them

And for weeks I barely eat
Steady diet of unfinished drinks
Laying hopeless in my bed
Conflicting urges never end

You can ask what's going on
Where do I start
Where did it go wrong
It'd be best just to forget
And if I showed you how I felt
It'd be a tour of hell and you're invited
And don't tell me just to smile
It's been too hard for a while
Or am I just unwilling to try

And when my light finally burns out
What the f*ck am I to do now
Nothing has ever helped
And I'm worried that nothing ever will

I'm confined
Walking border lines
Stubborn thoughts keep triggering me past the point of being fine
But I don't mind
Cause I've been used to the cold for a while