Big Dream - Fear Lyrics

I've made up my mind
It's been such a hell of a life
Now I've found my path
Promise ain't no turning back

And I've made up my mind It's been such a hell of a life
An Now I've found my path Promise ain't no turning back
Let me tell you bout the pain that i've felt
The tears that I shed the blood that I've spilled
I Had to face some fears Just so I could make it here

Adolescences taught me lessons but was such a blessin
No comprehensions for the visions of my mamma stressin
I ain't get why her and my pops was always yelling
Or why the kids at school f*cked with me cause I was different
Go an talk to who no one around to listen
Take it to the chin Toughen up Keep pressing
You get treated different when you coming from the section
So forgive me I promise I was made different
Look into my eyes I know that you can see the pain
Listen to my voice you can tell we not the same
I've lived through things that would drive a normal man insane
Pushed to the brink I even tried to blow my brains
It's a strange feeling when you start to think about it
You ever felt that type of shit you know a thing about it
Trapped in that mind state I just pray about it
And keep the hope one day I'll find a way around it

And I've made up my mind It's been such a hell of a life
An Now I've found my path Promise ain't no turning back
Let me tell you bout the pain that i've felt
The tears that I shed the blood that I've spilled
I Had to face some fears Just so I could make it here

Product of poverty That's probably why I had to sin
Patron of peace but the devil plead I let him in
Momma protect me I know you watching see ya kid
I've been trying to do right we never made amends
But I hope that can you see you helped to make a man
All of the arguments we had was never my intent
Been so numb lately I wonder when I'll feel again
Or when the day'll come I get to see Akil Ayin
August 17th man I swear to god I died
How the f*ck he gonna come an take my son life
Show me to them gates boy I'll go to war tonight
The thought of sweet revenge fill me up with such delight
They ain't built for this they'd probably die inside this fight
So much darkness wonder when I'll see the light
I'm the rose that wasn't meant to make it through the night
Just pray for us sinners all the times when we ain't right

And I've made up my mind It's been such a hell of a life
An Now I've found my path Promise ain't no turning back
Let me tell you bout the pain that i've felt
The tears that I shed the blood that I've spilled
I Had to face some fears Just so I could make it here

Keep on hustling hustling move on
Don't stop you're too strong
Been down for too long
They did you so wrong
Don't wait don't prolong
This where you belong
It's like you all saw now
Keep on hustling hustling move on
Don't stop you're too strong
Been down for too long
They did you so wrong
Don't wait don't prolong
This where you belong
It's like you all saw now

Had to stay up on your grind yeah
Put that heart in over ride yeah
Put that work in overdrive yeah
Tell yourself that you decide yeah

For all the nights you sat and cried
All the pain you hold inside
All the different routes that you've tried
And Now it's all gon be yours for life

And I've made up my mind It's been such a hell of a life
An Now I've found my path Promise ain't no turning back
Let me tell you bout the pain that i've felt
The tears that I shed the blood that I've spilled
I Had to face some fears Just so I could make it here

For life