Big Remy - Ordinary. Lyrics

Hold up, just wait for a minute
Imma tell you who i really am cmon n listen
An ordinary nigga who is mentally imprisoned
Lookin for a fix forever lost marijuana addiction

Cause something was always missing from my life i never figured it out
To lose a father that you hated full of love makes you doubt
All of these feelings you avoided til they came back around
Now all you think about is tryna figure out how to drown
How to drown

Never coming to the surface
Getting deeper in my curses
Always feeling f*ckin nervous

Im alright
It's alright
Just don't cry
Just don't cry

5 im still awake cause i cant sleep no more
Get up out my bed im feeling dead like ive been here before
Heavy clouds of hopelessness fill up the room and i can't take it
Wishin for umbrellas let me tell ya no way to escape it

Always lost in mind
Every minute f*ckin fadin
Im just wasting my time

I'm alright
It's alright
Just don't cry
Just don't cry

Hold up, just wait for a minute
Imma tell you who i really am cmon n listen
An ordinary nigga who is mentally imprisoned
Lookin for a fix forever lost marijuana addiction

Cause something was always missing from my life i never figured it out
To lose a father that you hated full of love makes you doubt
All of these feelings you avoided til they came back around
Now all you think about is tryna figure out how to drown
How to drown

Have you ever been sure you didn't wanna be here?
I remember that night memories so f*cking clear
Just like the cabinet i opened up while holdin back my tears
Lookin back at my reflection holdin pills lets disappear

Mama begging me to tell her what i took who f*cking cares
Heart was poundin i was crying losing words to send a prayer
Let me tell you bout psychosis to think you were over there but you turn around and 4 hours f*cking passed
To think back, i was so f*cked up
I should've died but i had so much luck
On my side
Didn't realize
What i had inside
Now ive realized
That i wanna be alive

Hold up, just wait for a minute
Imma tell you who i really am cmon n listen
An ordinary nigga who is mentally imprisoned
Lookin for a fix forever lost marijuana addiction

Cause something was always missing from my life i never figured it out
To lose a father that you hated full of love makes you doubt
All of these feelings you avoided til they came back around
Now all you think about is tryna figure out how to drown
How to drown