Big Ugly Dog - My Future Lyrics

I walk the streets of my hometown
Nothing's really changed
Except the look on peoples faces
As they quickly turn away
Once I had the love and trust
Of friends and family
Now no one wants to recognize
What's become of me

A small town hero's life is filled
With opportunity
But the horror on that autumn day
Left it's mark on me
When the smoke and ash had settled
I stood proud and tall
Put aside my boyhood dreams
And answered duty's call

Now there's images I can't erase
And scars no one can see
So I battle with my demons
And pray I'll find a little peace

My future is all behind me
It's the price I have paid
One false step led to another
And I got lost along the way
Everything I ever loved or valued
Has all just slipped away
My future is all behind me
I've got nothing left to say

Now I don't ask for forgiveness
For all the things I've done
Redemption don't come easy
And there's nowhere left to run
I just dwell inside the shadows
Relive all my sins
Trying not to think about
A life that might have been

The damage that I suffered
Left scars no one can see
Now I battle with my demons
And pray I'll find some peace

My future is all behind me
It's the price I have paid
One false step led to another
And I got lost along the way
All my hopes and dreams have vanished
In a self destructive haze
My future is all behind me
I've got nothing left to say