Big Xshon - decisions Lyrics

I guess I came to it, I made my decision
2024, I unlocked a whole new vision
Transferring away, I just took a new position
I ain't tell nobody about my own condition
I know that you're wondering what could be my reason
I've been losing my mind, crumbling like this whole season
I'm a perfectionist, I gotta keep improving
Gotta keep on moving, keep on losing, keep on proving
To myself that I can do it
I got a shot to take so I'ma shoot it
But just know that I could lose it
Still, confidence imma ooze it
My own future, imma choose it
I'm at the wheel, so the FJ gonna cruise it
On the bus, Xian please call me
Pack your bags, I left the meet so I could flee
Hey, Coach Morgan, tell him to stay pretty, pretty please
Why you calling my new coach
Hey, listen Roach
I know you do the most
It's time to hang it up
Just raise of hands, let's get some votes
Don't even stay after practice but you do your post
I'm outta here, you seem surprised, bitch, take some notes
Are you ready kids, well, Coach ain't so here's this roast
Eat your toast, eat your toast
In the portal, now I feel like I'm a ghost
Even Curcio was calling, giving his apologies for Appy
Had to go to Lee so I could finally be happy
Just wanna be the best at all I do but I felt badly
Make a team to qualify so I can go to Natty's
Well, why didn't you stop by earlier cause I ain't chatty
If you wanna speak, I'll drop the pen or send the addy (ahh, uhh)
Ahh, uhh, ahh, uhh, ahh yuh
Ahh, uhh, ahh, uhh, uhh, uhh, ahh yuh
But did I, but did I, but did I (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, yuh)
But did I, but did I (ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, yuh, yuh)
But did I make the right decision
I lost my girl because I failed the mission
Like she would speak and I would barely listen
And she'd be sad and I'd be in a prison
Always were so mad, there was always so much tension
I felt really bad, so I'd call it every mention
Locked up in my room on FaceTime
Just another way to erase time
What was that, that'd be your race time
Let's avoid contact for now, let's just take time
You never loved yourself, so you ain't love me properly
I was lonely for my life, so I handled it sloppily
I'm addicted to the wrong shit, it ain't fatherly
I'mma work on it and I be talking honestly
Why'd it have to spread out to your whole family
Stained my reputation, I lost that shit so rapidly (mmh, uhh, uhh)
Yeah, I lost that shit so rapidly (mmh, yuh)
And I lost you so rapidly
Like, on my life, why is all this happening (huh)
Why is all this happening