Bipolar Ecstasy - Lost (feat. Generic Prescription) Lyrics

By myself in my room picking up these broken pieces
Don't see how they fit together and if they did then what's the reason
I used to be that happy guy but I see the pages turning with the season
I see myself bleeding I'm screaming I don't wanna go I don't wanna leave
Can I have one more day with you maybe the world will change while we're both sleeping
Clocks ticking the times creeping I'm still weeping
Its been 6 months and I still don't wanna get up
I wish that made two of us
I wish you still wanted me I wish you still wanted me
I'm lost

I'm still breaking and feel like caving
I just wanna give up
But I can't end my life
Don't wanna see your pain don't wanna hurt you never wanna desert you
Im scarred so deep
I scream to god like where you at
Senior year is almost over but what's after that
I can't keep going not knowing what ill be open up my eyes and let me see
I can't keep this race going
Im lost

I hate to make you wait but i'm a little unsteady
I mean i barely know myself when i wake up to get ready
I got this weight set on my shoulders and it's feelin real heavy
I just wanna understand myself before i forget me

Before i'm relenting every little thing i thought i knew
I wanna tell myself apart from you, and you, and you
But i don't recognize my own a skin when i look in the mirror
It's like the devil found a way to prove to me that i'm a sinner

And i look around the house to see a vessel full of people
Tugging at the ball and chain of everything they've ever needed
I just thought they would've known that ends like this don't get a sequel
But maybe they're all caught in something that i could only dream of

I've been running around to figure it out
Asking the question of when where and how
Trying to find where my coping is found
All this in vain without similar doubts
You couldn't know where i found my own soul
Everyone tryna tell me where to go
But i can't unhear the lies that you've told
All that i know's that i am not my own

Looking for perception inside of your eyes
I don't mind
If they tell me that i'm nothing, i'll be working overtime
I can't make these rhymes
I can't make 'em shine
Unless you're screaming in my ear
You're the only one who inspires
Me to write the chemicals
Me to make these medicals
All these kids are spiritual
They teach me what i didn't know
I didn't know i'm
Lost