Instead of talking to a shrink about my mad past
I'm Putting all my problems on paper like it's math class
Dad passed and I started scheming on fast cash
But I'm too old to sell crack or let a gat blast
Flash back thinking bout my broken heart, stabbed back
Made me the man I am and man I am a bad ass
Hashtag Rest In Peace, typed that shit too many times
Seen that shit too many times heard that shit in plenty rhymes
Really I'm, this close to falling off the edge
Breaking down on my knees eyes balling by the ledge
In a world of billions, why I feel so isolated
Tough times a make you say my heart I need to microwave it
I ain't made it I ain't famous I'm hated
Gods favorite, Devil gotta contract for me but I won't take it
Time ain't on my side and it's getting worse
My skills is like Gus and Griffith cuz the shits Berserk
But like f*ck as a present my gift is a curse
Everyone in my city with a gift is just cursed
If my body is a temple why I need to find a church?
Pastors ain't right and the congregations just as worse
But for what it's worth it's a learning lesson
Tell the judge that I'm guilty and this pen be my murder weapon
My ex tried to take me out bout time
On dates that bitch never offered a f*ckin' dime
First time you don't succeed try again baby
I ditched you and found better that's a win baby
Weather storm and I'm gone like the wind baby
Opportunity a knock at my door? Tell me when baby
Tell it I'll be outside waiting on it
On the move like a fugitive can't be staying dormant
I got knocked down ten stood up eleven
Get crucified daily I still ain't seen heaven
I had Judas's and Cain's in my Old Testament
Stood up to Goliath's I gave Faith negligence
Wasn't meshing well jezebels
It took a snake to open my eyes to the truth I wish I never knew but well
That's a revelations for ya
These Fro verbs a cure ya sick soul it's medicine for ya
Can't change my Genesis
But I'm a have a great ending and Jehovah is one of my witnesses
I'm going in again
Cuz I done hit rock bottom like Dwayne Johnson going for the win
The best life has to offer I am so worthy
A Nigga trying change like his clothes dirty
This ones for the doubters and the naysayers
Defeat had me on the ropes but here's the haymaker
I'm trying to triumph leave defeat slumped
Bill Cosby shit knock em out with this punch
If you don't know God ya soul starve
On that I'm still standing my soul still famish
If you don't know God ya soul starve
On that I'm still standing my soul still famish nigga