I never last the summer sane
Pickled winter heals and then
In Spring I rise to Fall again
Life preserves me
Love is pain
Saving face
Redeem the Messiah
Her touch that let in hell fire
I'm digging deep what I'd become
Quiet desperation got my tongue
Never fight
Never lose
Never try
Never bruise
Always right
I'm a fool
Always right
I'm a fool
I've got thoughts to kill
To take to rage
Thoughts to maim
To name and shame
Thoughts to kill
To take to rage
I hide it all
Vanilla Beige
Oh my dear
Your values were sold
You'd die to stay young
But those words make you old
I'm digging deep what I become
Quiet desperation got my tongue
Never fight
Never lose
Never try
Never bruise
Always right
I'm a fool
Always right
I'm a fool
I faced fear alone as a child
I've got feelings I can't name
Faced violence beyond comprehension
I kept quiet to keep you all sane
Now my pain is views with suspicion
Better quiet unseen and alone
Violence beyond comprehension
That child you once knew has grown
I've got thoughts to kill
To take to rage
Thoughts to maim
To name and shame
Thoughts to kill
To take to rage
I hide it all
Vanilla Beige
I hide it all
Vanilla Beige
I hide it all
Vanilla beige