I quit the drugs and I cut the girlfriends out
Now I realize how depressed I am now
Skipped the family meals and all the hangouts
My thoughts to everyone who feels this way now
On my mind, on my mind, on my mind
Suicide, no more life can't bust right through this wall
On my mind, on my mind, on my mind
Wanna end it but don't want to spread the pain to all
On my mind
All these artists love to waste my time
College had me worried, hurt my pride
While Nicky got my head all intertwined
I'm disinclined
Afraid to face to the truth
As I slip back into the chamber that's my room
I know the devil cries
While watching me write all these tunes
How can I disappear, no stressing while life resumes
My modern blues
Yeah we know that the days can be so cruel
Whatever happened to the boy we knew in high school
Friendships die, days fly, nothing lasts forever
I need a break from myself
Salvation ease my pressure
I can see right through your smile and I
Can see the pain endured inside your eyes
You are not alone I'm by your side
You are not alone I'm by your side
I quit the drugs and I cut the girlfriends out
Now I realize how depressed I am now
Skipped the family meals and all the hangouts
My thoughts to everyone who feels this way now
On my mind, on my mind, on my mind
Suicide, no more life can't bust right through this wall
On my mind, on my mind, on my mind
Wanna end it but don't want to spread the pain to all
I've been through a lot in this life of mine
It's the reason I feel these beats and when I write these rhymes
Sometimes I feel so lost like I can't find my mind
Then I realized my struggles they don't define my shine
The depression, it sets in deep
Making me weak like I can't stand on both feet
Just wanna sleep, don't eat
Feel incomplete for weeks
And then I start to see
The only one who can make a change in my heart is me
So I switched the way I think
Knowing I'm so unique
Not hopeless I know I'm free
To focus on what could be
My mentality creates my own reality
So I strive to be my best even when it's so challenging
Consumed by these thoughts that are deep in my brain
Like who is at fault, only me who's to blame
We choose how we feel at the end of the day
So I'ma choose positivity, get negative energy out of the way
It's Murda