Brett Gleason - If I Could Lyrics

I close my eyes, disconnect my mind,
Still I cannot forget you
The sun and the moon left me paralyzed,
Still I tried to embrace you
Cnd though we've departed now I still see,
Everything through your eyes
I hear you pronouncing that you can still,
See through all my lies

If I Could be anything I would be,
Something that doesn't need to believe,
Something that feels instead
If I Could feel anything I would feel secure and safe on this free spinning sphere,
Not randomly forced to live, for death

I could create but not contain,
So I had to cremate you
To kill off the offspring from out of which,
My heart and brain grew
C cancer that threatened to lead me to,
My final conclusion
The theory that everything's leading to,
Disintegration.


If I Could be anything I would be,
Freed from this constant questioning,
Freed from the constant shame
If I Could free anything I would free the human race from the pain that they bring,
We try to understand then fail,
To accept

If I Could be anything I would be incapable of hypothesizing,
Just subjectively observe with no thought to my relevance or objectivity,
With no regard to mortality

If I hurt you once it was not enough,
To vindicate me for
Leading me further away from where,
I needed to be but,
If there is one thing I've learned it's there's,
Nothing harder than hating except,
Releasing myself from the hold of what, I had hoped would be

If I Could be