Brick L - RIP to My Dreams.. Lyrics

I have died in my dreams
Now reality to me ain't what it seems
My thoughts have been racing now it got me seeing things
Paralyzed in bed and in my head I cannot leave
Try to drink away but nah that's hypnotizing me
Road to my destruction I ain't even in my car
But my girl on my side so I'm just fine with where we are
Most my exes hit line not on mind so I came far
Something's ain't how I plan it shot for stars and land on mars
New status cannot wait more I'm moving on
None my friends are dead they got they own life they been gone
I been being selfish tryna get them follow along
But I realized that this my dream and I dream it on my own
My life been a movie a flick
But I choose what I want Netflix
Making moves yeah it's all for my kids
If I make it all I'm gone make it big
Feel like Im stuck in a room
Not getting out soon
Thoughts moving fast like zoom
Anxiety bringing me doom
It's only past noon
I usually drink to the moon
Lately feeling good now cuz I do what I should now
My life's an open book but I won't let no one look now
I been in my zone I'm hazard Leave me lone
I have poison in my phone still do things I don't condone
I been living life Living fast lord I'm crashing
Don't like when I'm high I might die see lights flashing
Cannot close my eyes been day 5 I been vamping
The one who is my wife keeps me live now I'm ranting
People are so bitter on my twitter
Tweet like bird yuh
Typing every letter like it's killer
Weapons words yuh
Sticks and stones may break my bones
But her words can hurt me hit right home
Seem to never learn my lesson make the same mistakes again
But I'm quick to take a blessing then revert right back to sin
Yeah these dreams keep me in resting lucid states just freeze my limbs
There's this girl I keep on kissing fight her Power cannot win
In the hospital off the drugs (I can hardly think straight)
Heard my Moma crying that's enough (Had stop and find my way)
It's ironic how people say they love (They pick and choose they own day)
But I don't need em cuz I had enough
That's why I've died in my dreams
Now reality to me ain't what it seems
My thoughts have been racing now it got me seeing things
Paralyzed in bed and in my head I cannot leave
Try to drink away but nah that's hypnotizing me
Road to my destruction I ain't even in my car
But my girl on my side so I'm just fine with where we are
Most my exes hit line not on mind so I came far
Something's ain't how I plan it shot for stars and land on mars
Dreams are dead my minds been resting
Praying for peace my only blessing
Dreams are dead my minds been resting
Praying for peace my only blessing