Brinkworth - Intentions Lyrics

I dont think I'll ever be the same as them
But I don't think I'll ever be the same again
Listen
Look come and take this walk with me
Listen to this rhythm and just come and share my thoughts with me
Often keeping to myself noone to talk with me
Roll alone a lonely soul with nothing but my thoughts with me
Well I got a phone naturally
With 10 contacts 5 of them are family
I've cut so many people out my life the way it has to be
Cuz I don't have the strength to build the friendships that they ask of me
I get so anxious so depressive that it f*cks me up
Refuse to show my weakness so use anger just to cover up
Try to keep my distance
Be no burden know I'm different
But they just say I'm anti social and I'm ignorant
Sometimes I think to agree tho
See many times I listen to them gritting my teeth so
I don't tell them what I really think
Shatter their egos
Whats important to these people doesn't matter to me bro
And I don't think I'll ever be the same as them
Seen so much in life I
Could never be the same again
Ive seen so many lie
I could never entertain a friend
Who's looked into my eyes and tried deny it when you say to them
I think of all my secrets I would say to them
Let a couple in then I let them go away again
I think of all the things they take away with them
The little pieces of me lost
I can never be that way again
Said I can never be the same again
I won't never see those days again
I won't never feel that pain again
Embedded in my brain so them deceitful type of people will not ever see my face again
See I said that I would wait for them
But realised it was a lie and swore that I would never change again
For anybody other than myself
Cuz I have had it thrown back in my face when i have helped
Remember how I used to look into her eyes and we would melt
Convinced that we were soul mates was the deepest ever felt
Said she wanted to have babies even talked of wedding bells
Until she judged me on the ones who came before me and we failed
Wonder what i would be like if my father hadn't failed
Would I have had the opportunity to be more like myself
Could I have found that extra confidence I needed to excell
Could have the presence of a man reduced the pressures on myself
What if the things I taught my brother was all crap n didn't help
I was answering his questions never quite knowing myself
But then I think of how dad acts n how he turned out for himself
And thank the gods he wasn't here cause I'd have ended up in jail
I'd have punched him in his chest so hard I'd puncture both his lungs
And show him what we'd do for the protection of our mum
We're bound to have some
IInherited your worst traits
Heard you 60 today so I guess it's happy birthday
There I go again, flashes of my nasty side
It happens when I'm rapping get these flashes of my past I find
That I cannot remember till the beat drops and my pad provides
The canvas for my past for all the listeners to cast aside
I tell them LISTEN but to hear me though
You really have to LISTEN to me clearly know
That all I've ever wanted is to help out those who near me though
Keep them from my demons even though I longed to keep them close
A couple Doors got opened that were dangerous but needed so
Brave of us to jump it's a crying shame to see them closed
I didn't ever wanna see you go
And I'll forever feel you in my soul
Guess I wrote this for the people who this story as it's told
Was based upon the building blocks of most of what I know
The ones who taught me what it's like to be at home and feel alone
The ones who held on to me tight yet in time would let me go
And i know as you listen to these lyrics in your bose
And my voice will strike a feeling that goes deep into your soul
Know you feel it its no secret all i wanted was my
And forever I'll remember how it felt to feel you close
Yet i know how difficult you fought to keep control
Understand the weight of how i love is way too much to hold
I knew this from the start so aint no grudges here to hold
I just guess that this was wrote so my intentions can be known