Brinkworth - Trauma Lyrics

I wake up everyday with a feeling
Like I should better myself
Stone cold and alone with no heating
God damn I'm depressing myself
Lead up in bed under pressure n stressed
Need to get up get dressed keep telling myself
That today is the day that I change
As I roll a phat zoot tho' they said it don't help
But you gotta have something
So I smoke in the hope I can cope as it takes off the edge
Always stressed about something
Real talk many times stood close to the ledge
But I feel like there's gotta be something
But I don't know what it is yet
I don't know what to fix
Got so much to give
But I really don't know what it is yet
And so I plod along on my way
Head down no sense of direction
I don't watch a word that they say
More time I can clock their intentions
None of it nice bore the brunt of it twice
Lord knows I'm not looking for no gain or attention
I just wanna be at peace in my mind
Get some sleep when I try
And not cry when it's mentioned
So I've started off this new year
Headstrong new sense of direction
Forget friends don't need them
Look I forced my own intervention
Show no offence I'm alone as i vent
In my Zone on my bed building flows in my head
Thinking I have never really given close to my best
Ghost like , now I feel I've rose from the dead
I'm an artist that's always been known for my depth
If i told you everything that goes through my head
I'd be locked up stocked up a soldier or dead
Cuz well you could say that I'm different
My mood changed in an instant
Wisdom is often what we gain if we listen
Admittedly i need to make a change to my system
But its so hard to change the pattern
No matter who it is who tells me i can make it happen
Stay stuck dont budge with my brain unbalanced
So depressive every second is a major challenge
I mean it aint like i purposely waste my talent
Its just
I wake up every day with a chest full of pain and a head full of trauma
If you had seen the scenes that i see when i sleep
You'd be contemplating a murder
Faint in a daze off the 8th that i blazed last night in the hope that i would drift that bit further
The deeper i sleep leaves my demons at peace so i need the relief from the weed that i burn up
But aint nobody listen when i tell them tho
Aint nobody see my vision when i let em know
Noone wants to get involved until they see you get in tho
Some will try to step on toes or see you as a stepping stone
I wont let em wont fold under pressure Wont show no mercy to those who wont let me grow
So
Well i better go
Better take the leap that i said I'd go
From everything they told me that i couldnt do i done the things
I shouldn't do but yet somehow i got to where i wanna go
So
Well i guess that it means i just need to believe
Cuz the reason i breath is to seek my release through the speakers i need to be free cuz i feel like
I wake up everyday with a chest full of pain and a head full of trauma
But i dont wanna wake that way no more
Its bout time that i try to make more of
The chances i get to advance from this mess
From a living fulla misery, dancing with death
To a place where everyday were thankful and blessed
Cuz we just dont know how many chances are left
Im just dont know how many chances we get
Cuz it aint like I get the same chance as the rest
So its ignorant if i dont take the chances i get
I dont wanna risk the chance of regret
I see this as my chance to forget
Let go move on
I feel its time to progress
Took a whole year but now im finally set
To rise up and achieve all I said
And believe me im next to be seen as a threat
You're guaranteed to hear me skipping over beats with the best
Im Ibrahimovic with lyrics
I'm a beast and a vet
You aint seen nothing yet
I wake up everyday with a chest full of pain and a head full of trauma
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