bsmnt bdrm. & ruiner. & jplow - Contemplating Lyrics

I've been contemplating every word you said
I can't get out of bed, I'm stuck in my head
Take a deep breath, try to get myself dressed, but I'm too far gone again
You helped me see the good in me
You extinguished the flame we ignited together it used to burn so bright
Now it just withers, a lonely ember left to brave the night
I tried so hard to make you see, I'd give my all if you'd believe
It's not that I think I'm perfect, I'm not, but what we had is all I got
As life rolls by
I'm stuck in the past
My scars still last
But this too shall pass
I spent so many of my days going down to that place where we used to lay
Under the stars at night, we'd dream about our future beneath the moonlight
Now it's just a figment of the past, like a polaroid drenched in kerosene with a match
I've never seen one burn so fast my whole life disappeared with one quick flash
And I've been going through some things
I tried to show you but you wouldn't believe
Or maybe you just wouldn't care
But what's the point anyways your not even there
And when I think I've finally broken free your grip returns and wraps its arms around me
I need you to see I can't even f*cking breathe
I need you, but you don't need me
I need you, but you don't even want me
I need you, but you'll never need me
I need you, but you're better without me
You're better without me, it's true
As life goes by
I'm stuck in the past
My scars still last
But this too shall pass
I've been contemplating every word you said