Burlee - Banquet Meals Lyrics

Barely getting by off some banquet meals
Smoking straight filterless camels
Seeing the street lights pass me by
Thinking of my life as another goodbye
I don't know if I'll ever be ready to die
So I take a drag and say goodnight
To a world that never gave a f*ck
To the people who didn't care enough
Rest my head on the cold pillow
Relax my mind and ease my soul
I know that I gotta go
One of these days, one of these days

I hope where I go is somewhere I know
Like Saint Marys in the snow
I hope where I go is somewhere I know
A familiar place with a familiar glow

Looking through the car window
Seeing evergreens and the willows
Go from beautiful to barren
Love changes with the season
Time moves on without a reason
Heart cold but still beating
Recently feeling defeated
Using my vices as a healing
Staring up at the ceiling
Wondering how I turned out this way
Living my life as a shut in hideaway
Seeing everything I love wash away

Looking up to the stars trying feel less alone
Praying to God that he can take me home
To see your face one more time
Hear you congratulate your son of mine
For making it out of the gutter
Away from their constant mutters
The chitter chatter and the commotion
How everyone's always boasting
About the drugs and failed emotions
But I'm still feeling it how I feel it
Living my hermit, misfit, bullshit
Wannabe this, wannabe that
But I will never be you & that's a fact
Cuz I will always have myself
That's what I did on my own
I didn't need no f*ckin help