The Prize Video (MV)

You ain't ever been good enough
You ain't ever been good at love
You ain't ever been good enough
You ain't ever been
You ain't ever been good enough
You ain't ever been good at love
You ain't ever been good enough
Stop
Telling me lies
Think I don't know when I fail at goodbyes?
Think I don't know what I've done when I notice I've cut down the love that I feel in her eyes?
Feeling of knives
Barely surprised
Starts at my heart and it ends at my thighs
Dark as it swallows my mind laughing "Hold on to what? Tell me where is your God? You are merely the prize"
Ooh, sitting in the black
Think of what I lose, um, when I get it back?
Thinking of a new song, when I getta act?
Thinking if I do stop, would I get her hand?
Thinking if I do got any kinda tact
Then I probably would've used it if I coulda run it back
Think of all the bruises, the cuts, and the baggage
It's sentimental value cause I get it from my dad
Ha ha ha
Nah I wish I could get rid of it
Think of all the trust issues that I'm living in
Reminding me of my tattoos and their meaning and now I'm just blue
I'm thinking of a better Ben
Typical Gemini
Been the group, been the guide
Mental will atomize
Weapon to sanitize
Then he took venom, eyes
Scan the room and despise
Friends that look really nice
"This is cool" then he dies
Alright fine
Nah, don't fit me in a box like that
Thinking that we'll both be across that path
Sacrifices, but it's not that bad
But I must have forgotten all the lives I've had
Must have forgotten all the lies I've said
That I've told myself and then I've believed
Like I don't deserve what God's got planned
Or I don't know how much time I've left
What if I stand back?
I've still got the anger, I doused that match like phjruh
And you know I gotta burn it
Take a little flame and I turn it to a furnace
And I don't know where I heard it
But just cause I do a God song doesn't mean I'm perfect
Stop
Telling me lies
Think I don't know when I fail at goodbyes?
Think I don't know what I've done when I notice I've cut down the love that I feel in her eyes?
Feeling of knives
Barely surprised
Starts at the heart and it ends at the thighs
Dark as it swallows my mind laughing "Hold on to what? Tell me where is your God? You are merely the prize"
Telling me lies
Think I don't know when I fail at goodbyes?
Think I don't know what I've done when I notice I've cut down the love that I feel in the love that I feel in her eyes?
Feeling of knives
Starts at the heart, ends at the thighs
Dark as it swallows my mind laughing "Hold on to what? Tell me where is your God? You are merely the merely the prize"
Merely the prize?
Doesn't make sense, though it's lodged in my mind
I'm always downplaying accomplishment pride
I'm constantly focused on crossing that line
Constantly know that I fail to try
Supposedly chosen, but fear is a vice
Constantly thought to pray more in the day on the mountain top rather than just in the valley at night
But if God says I'm the prize
Who has been telling me all of these lies?
Who's been here saying I'm failing at times when I'm doing the greatest I've made in my life?
You can get out of my head
Leave me alone in the name of my friend
Leave me alone, I'm Jesus' you hearing the words that I'm saying? You better have left
You better have left
I'm telling you once, I won't say it again
Trying my hardest in all of my strength
But I know that there's no way that I'm going to win
But consider I know something
Consider that I know someone that can
Consider I thought I know where I'm at and then God just came in and took over the reign
So I ain't got time for playing
Depression, you're fun, but you're not in the plans
Depression, you're nah, I hated the years
The times that we had I would never want back
Times that we had, I's imprisoned in fact
A prisoner of visions of what I would lack
You've already wasted a decade but now I've decided against bowing to your demands.
Stop
Telling me lies
Think I don't know when I fail at goodbyes?
Think I don't know what I've done when I notice I've cut down the love that I feel in her eyes?
Feeling of knives
Barely surprised
Starts at the heart, it ends at the thighs
Dark as it swallows my mind laughing "Hold on to what? Tell me where is your God? You are merely the prize"
Telling me lies
Think I don't know when I fail at goodbyes?
Think I don't know what I've done when I notice I've cut down the love that I feel in the love that I feel in her eyes?
Feeling of knives
Starts at the hear, ends at the thighs
Dark as it swallows my mind laughing "Hold on to what? Tell me where is your God? You are merely the merely the prize"
Yeah, I'm done
Jokes
Ha and I know
Cause I'm ready, gonna blow
And the feelings that I really had already got involved
And I'm ready for my head to be all rid of the depression that affected for a decade so I said it's gotta go
I said it's gotta go
Know that when I do that I am bettering my soul
Know that you're confused
What you're hearing is a "No" that you're shouting to the spiritual
Ridding all the ghosts like nah
Stop
Telling me lies
Think I don't know when I fail at goodbyes?
Think I don't know what I've done when I notice I've cut down the love that I feel in her eyes?
Feeling of knives
Barely surprised
Starts at my heart and it ends at my thighs
Darkness can't falter my mind, cause I'm still holding on
I'm supported by God and He cares for His prize