Bx Streetz - The Breakdown Lyrics

This is my life
Peak of the pressure
Where few will survive
Harder to breath
How do i stay alive
I got 2 kids
Am I doing this right
(Look)
This is my life
Peak of the pressure
Where few will survive
Harder to breath
How do I stay alive
I got 2 kids
Am I doing this right
I got nobody to answer I'm tight
This is why I just breakdown when I write
Pen to the pad that's a contact I like
Lost in my thoughts I could break down and cry
Cant show I'm weak I got way to much pride
Feelings I push to the back of my mind
Why did he leave us in critical times
Raising my brother I did it all blind
I f*cked it up and I learn that In time
This is why learning is harder for me
Providing the water to nourish my seeds
Sorry if I came on strong but I'm deep
I'm am a ocean that no one can see
I told my mother be patient with me
This is a lot and I'm brought to my knees
World on my shoulders I carry this free
Pain in my heart I will bury with me
Wela she miss me and I miss her too
She always calling me Joshua come thru
Idk why I make up the excuse
I wish i could put you all under one roof
This is the me that I hide underneath
Inside is boy who subdued to the Streetz
I can't change who I am it's a creed
God can you hear me I'm looking for peace
My girl she loves me I know that she do
She don't give up and I know that's she's true
Up in her feelings if we are forever
And no I don't blame her
The knot is still loose
One day I'll tie it just give me some time
I wanna make sure I'm doing this right
I am a guardian searching for light
Never let go cause I'm holding on tight
(Yeah)
I'm holding on tight
(Please)
This is my life
Peak of the pressure
Where few will survive
Harder to breath
How do i stay alive
I got 2 kids
Am I doing this right