Cameron Joseph Edwards - Guardian Angels Lyrics

Yeah

I don't even wanna think about this
I don't wanna dream about this
I don't wanna read about this
Hey, waking out my sleep about this
I used to grieve about this
I still grieve about this
My guardian angels are up there
Hoping they see me down here

Yeah (yeah)
Maybe all that happened to you, to show me, what path I should not take
In a dark, dark space
These dark, dark thoughts ain't safe
They throwing it all in my face
Needed some time to myself, but what I really didn't need for me is space
All I wanted for me was somebody just to stay
All I wanted for me was the dark to go away
Now I need some time, I need to rewind, I need the sunshine
Cause lately it's been feeling like the moon, real dark inside my mind
Patience, having patience
Hit the gas, brake, crash on pavement
Got me looking like I just got a face lift
They say "scars are cool" and I'll take it
He still going with this verse, they ask in amazement
Well I ain't get, to the point that I been trying to make and
Make sense I make cents, basic
My darkness digs real deep, price of my heart, no it ain't cheap
No one just getting all these feelings
That's only her, think about her every millisecond
I met a light and she showed me how to brighten up my life
I can't wait for the day that i ask her to be my wife
That's mine, that's mine, that's mine
And she so fine, so fine, so fine
I'm taking my time, my time, my time
If we never met, I would've never been revived
Sometimes I feel Dev put you in my life
And for that I'll be your guardian when I die

I don't even wanna think about this
I don't wanna dream about this
I don't wanna read about this
Hey, waking out my sleep about this
I used to grieve about this
I still grieve about this
My guardian angels are up there
Hoping they see me down here

Yeah
You got drunk and you smoked some reef
I heard the news and I gnashed my teeth
I felt foolish, it should've been me
I said even without knowing circumstances
Had to start planting new seeds, I seen that your mom posted something on your feed
Just an obituary
I wonder how your brother dealt with it
I think he was real young, right?
I mean I was too, but wasn't he like 9?
Always keeping him in my prayers for you Dev
And with this music thing you know I'm tryna be the best
And my relationship going good, she's impressive
So strong, so resilient and so special
I talk to her about you and it's no pressure
It's so beautiful the way she lets me be so vulnerable
All inside my head, I overthink a lot with us
My anxiety needs to lock on up
My sobriety, never had a problem with it
And I never will cause I'm in love
I'm in love, Dev I mean it she's my whole heart
She's my start, a new beginning without this dark inside my soul picking it apart
I remember I used to tell you how gramps was dying and to watch over my dad
I remember how I used to talk to just you and now it's you and gramps up there laughing
I remember how I used to be so sad and wish it was me that went to heaven
I regret that, cause I met the one person that's gave me hope and everything

I don't even wanna think about this (I've wanted)
I don't wanna dream about this
I don't wanna read about this
Hey, waking out my sleep about this
I used to grieve about this
I still grieve about this
My guardian angels are up there
Hoping they see me down here