I don't want to tell a lie
But I feel like I'm dead inside
Every time I close my eyes
I don't wanna open mine
Maybe its just foolish pride
Maybe I should let it go
Maybe I should tell someone
Or I should just forget it tho
Take me away from here
My futures so unclear
Don't wanna face my fears
I wanna disappear
Don't know who I can tell
Feels like I'm living in hell
I do this shit to myself
Don't know what's gonna help
Im drinking away the pain I feel
Sometimes this shit gets too real
And I don't know how to feel
And I don't know how to deal with it
Said I don't know how to feel
And I don't know how to deal but
Im not okay
Give a f*ck what I say
Im not okay
Im not okay
Ill be fine
I got so much to say
Bottled up in my brain
Drowning in a pool full of pain
And I hate it
Im not okay
But ill get through it
Im just stuck in my room
Playing some sad music
Telling myself its just a phase
I aint smiled in a couple of days
But its okay cause
Im not okay
Im okay
Im not okay
Give a f*ck what I say
Im not okay