Caroline Bowling - Garden Variety Lyrics

It's okay to let me know
You love me a little less
Than you did when we first met
It's okay for you to tell the truth
Even when it's hard to breathe out
Scared I might choke on the air
My lungs might give out
But I've grown tough ribs
From all of my crying fits
If you punch me I'm afraid
I might not feel it
So hit me extra hard
When I'm scared and it's dark
Counterintuitive
But I never said I was quotidian
You won't find me
In your garden variety
I won't be the one
You find conventional
I thought that I loved you
But it was only the memories
I have a hard time feeling
But I felt a lot when you were here with me
I'm not a masochist
I just don't know how to exist
Without someone beating me down
I miss the sound of you drowning me out
It's gotten quiet
I miss the screaming
It gave me a sense of meaning
I'm having a harder time believing
In anything other than Jesus
You won't find me
In your garden variety
I won't be the one
You find conventional
I thought that I loved you
But it was only the memories
I have a hard time feeling
But I felt a lot when you were here with me
And you won't find me
In your garden variety
I won't be the one
I have a hard time feeling
But I felt a lot when you were here with me