CC Nichols - I Think I Got This Wrong Lyrics

I fell down and I didn't get up
I leaped before I looked
I tried to climb out of that hole
Down in the ground
I asked a friend to lend a hand
Got kicked in the head instead
Now I'm stuck
Searching for my way around
I didn't want it bad enough
I gave in when I shoulda manned up
Someone else came in
And finished my job
Boss man told me I'm done
He's got other people firing that gun
Now I'm stuck
Standing in the welfare line
I'm always
Stealing defeat from the jaws of victory
I keep on
Trying to dream it instead of being it
I should stop
Seeking excuses for every solution
I think I got this wrong
I got too much advice from them
Not enough advice from him
Everyone's wondering
What the hell's going on
I don't know myself
I'm hoping no one figures it out
Now I'm stuck
Looking for the next train south
I'm always
Stealing defeat from the jaws of victory
I keep on
Trying to dream it instead of being it
I should stop
Seeking excuses for every solution
I think I got this wrong
I think I need to say I'm sorry
To everyone that gave me a chance
I just couldn't recognize
That was my shot gun blast
Good times and bad times
And everything in between
I just wish I wasn't so good
At doing the wrong damn thing
I'm always
Stealing defeat from the jaws of victory
I keep on
Trying to dream it instead of being it
I should stop
Seeking excuses for every solution
I think I got this wrong