Census - A Vigil for the Living Lyrics

Do you ever wanna die just to know what people thought about you
Do you ever wonder why it has to be this way
In the middle of a drive
Pedal to the metal, head is spinning faster than the f*ckin' wheels below
Maybe break some bones, but then she'll tell you how she feels
And sometimes at night I fantasize about how it would feel
To hear you cry my name and know I'm not insane

(I am not insane, I am not insane)
(I am not insane, I am not insane)
I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, it was real
Tell me what you want me to do
I've been tryna make my way back to you
But now I'm stuck inside my head, can't get out of bed
Staring at the empty space you left

In the middle of the night
Wishing I was kissing you the way we used to do before you disappeared
But baby, I'm still here
Where did I go wrong
I'll wear my heart up on my sleeve and sing this song in every city 'til it gets to you
Until I make it through
If you don't love me, set me free

(I am not insane, I am not insane)
(I am not insane, I am not insane)
I'm not insane, I'm not insane
I'm not insane, it was real
Tell me what you want me to do
I've been tryna make my way back to you
But now I'm stuck inside my head, can't get out of bed
Staring at the empty space you left

I'll hold a vigil for the living just so you can see the bullshit that you put me through
You f*ckin' put me through it
So hold my heart under a microscope
Tell me why my arteries and every single part of me
Are lifeless 'til the moment you walk in the room
And I just wish you knew
I never said goodbye, but God, I wanted to
But you f*cked my life up, f*cked my life up
F*cked my life up, f*cked my life up