Chris Jewson - Crocodile Tears (feat. Neek) Lyrics

I been down, with a smile on my face
Watching crocodile tears when they know I'm not okay
Working to assert myself, working to go set it straight
To prioritize priorities and learn from my mistakes
And learn the past is the past and the sunshine rises
When the dark night comes then the Dark Knight Rises
And the part time funds paying off on my supplies
Try'na help with what I can and try'na take it off my mind
Sometimes I don't wanna talk and go engage in conversation
Sometimes I just wanna sit and let my music take me places
And it's different from the anger and I'm feeling I can't take it
I just wanna blow on everyone that's looking in a funny way
I'll pass and have some water, trying not to fall asleep in class
Coffee, keep me up, 4 A.M. it's back to sleep at last
Schedules incomplete, today turvy, man I wanna stop
Have everything around me disappear, the lights are turning off
Back to my room where nobody is near me
Back to my room where nobody can hear me
Back to my dark room, locked in my emotion
Acting like I care, but I feel nobody knows it
I don't, yeah
I don't, yeah
I don't yeah, yeah, yeah
I don't, I don't, I don't
I don't, I don't, I don't
I don't, I don't, I don't
I don't, I don't, I don't
I don't wanna be the one you only come to when you're bored
I don't wanna be the one you only hit up after ignoring
I don't wanna have to cover up the actions of somebody else
Then go back to treated like the past or anybody else
Don't wanna listen to my favorite songs and have to think of you
Don't wanna go to all my favorite spots and have to think of you
I hate it how it works, maybe you can feel it too
But I resent the fact I let you damper what I tried to be for you
It's damned if I do, and I'm damned if I don't
Biggest critic is myself now it's damn what I wrote
And it's damn you for trampling the path of this relationship
And standing by in silence as I tried so hard at saving it
They just ain't my friends, right?
Maybe they just ain't my friends, right?
Maybe I just learn to go and leave the past in the past
And the people might be gone but the trust issues last
Thanks a lot
I don't, yeah
I don't, yeah
I don't yeah, yeah, yeah
I don't, I don't, I don't
I don't, I don't, I don't
I don't, I don't, I don't
I don't, I don't, I don't
I see the innocence in your eyes
I see the way you share the love that always in your heart
I see the way you always try to build it up whenever they gon' tear it down
Watch the pieces of the puzzle, crash and crumble, fall apart
Work to put em back, and it's just repeat the process
Treat you less of like a person, treat you more of like an object
Never have a second thought, well they gon' always speak the same
Then the feelings coming out and they just place it like a game
I hate to see the pain on you, I hate to see the pain on you
Tears are rolling down and I don't wanna be away from you
Don't wanna see you down and I don't wanna see you cry
I'm sickened by the front and when they put up that disguise
I see the way they treat you and I wanna say something
But the second that I do, it leads to further repercussions
They're believing in their lies, swear I'm boutta shed a tear for you
No matter what'll happen don't forget I'm always here for you
I'm always by your side and I'm always here go call
When there's a dimmer in your light, don't forget it's not your fault
Never was, never is, and it isn't how it should be
I'm sick I have to picture it to see just how it could be
When smiles all you know and I don't have to see you anxious
Cause I'm anxious when you are and I mean it when I say it
Imma always keep a watch even when they're not around
Cause my nails are getting shorter, you can see why I been down
Back to my room where nobody can see me
Back to my room where I feel I'm the real me
Trapped in my own head, free in my own box
Knowing what I wanna be and lost in my thoughts