Whats the real reason I'm mad
Is it my future or the past
I know it's both and been opposed to hope
And haven't opened, nope I just laugh
I just hold it in til I snap
It's been a lonely road
Hope the homies know
That I just don't think they get it
And it's not their problem it is mine
And yet I don't I'll fix it
How am I change when I don't know my best image
I just have to say
I could paint a picture with a thousand words
Worth a thousand more
And It still won't be my limit
Been a million you's
And barely one of me
So f*ck round and lose some f*cking teeth
I better
Shut the f*ck up
Ain't never
Nothing tough nah
I just been pissing and moaning
And wishing for maybe some
Dumb luck f*ck me
This is not who I am
Or who I intended to be
This not who I am
Or who I intended you see
Wrath is a killer of men
Wrath is what fuels them to hurt women
Unchecked aggression and latent bigotry feeds them
Then they digest what they see as motivation to continue this cycle
Chris will you continue down this road?
Blaming everyone around you for what you did?
Continuing to do this over and over again
Relive the same mistakes that you can't rectify
When will you just give up and move on
What's the real reason I'm mad
Nah it's prolly cuz I'm just a fat slob
With some great big hopes
For a rap job
When the fact I'm
Not gon' ever be the greatest if I keep this up
I can't beat the buzz
I don't got no hype
And I don't give a f*ck
I guess there's the root
I mean how can I be best
When I keep giving up
I don't know
I don't know
I got all these ideas
All of my fears
And I don't know
I'm just a sinner who doesn't believe
Yet I got brother who does and he doesn't do better than me
F*ck is you tweaking
I beat on the beat
Every beat I complete
I better
Shut the f*ck up
Ain't never
Nothing tough nah
I just been pissing and moaning
And wishing for maybe some
Dumb luck f*ck me
This is not who I am
Or who I intended to be
This not who I am
Or who I intended you see