It's funny, it's been such a long time
And I've still got you in the forefront of my mind
Where'd the time go? How did we get here
How do I make the thought of you just disappear
But it's ironic, because I'm to blame
I'm the reason that our love just ain't the same
I know that in the past, I made some mistakes
Some mistakes that, I just can't erase
But here's the thing, yeah, the point that you missed
You're holding on to a me that no longer exists
A version of myself I buried a long time ago
So why do we hold on to the past and never let it go
And I don't blame you, because I hate him too
I hate him for all of the things that he put you through
If I could just go back in time and change the past
I'd do everything differently, no questions asked
But I can't change the past, I can only change the future
But it seems so hard when people hold on to who you were
I hope you know there's not a day that ever goes by
Where I don't think about this, it eats me alive
I used to sit in my room all day and just cry
'Cause I never thought you'd be the one to say goodbye
That hurt me more than you'll ever know
And no, I don't blame you, I just hope it shows
I did care about you, even if you didn't know
That's why I hated myself for letting you go
I couldn't give you my all, I didn't even love myself
So how did I think I could love anybody else
I tried to fake a smile while carrying my baggage
But I couldn't see you were collateral damage
And in retrospect, there's a lot I'd do differently
I just hope that one day you find the peace to forgive me
So, I hope that you know
What I'm trying to show
And I'm sorry for everything
And I'm wishing you peace
For the pain to release
'Cause the past is in the past
But we have today
I had a dream about you last night
Or I guess you could call it a nightmare
'Cause you were standing right there talking to me
And you were crying, hoping I wouldn't see
And so I asked what was wrong, and that's when you told me
That you really weren't as okay as you seemed
That you had a lot of struggles other people couldn't see
That you were trapped in your mind, waiting to be set free
That's when I woke up, and it got me thinking
If this dream was a message, am I overthinking
Or is it just my subconscious telling me I still worry about you
And I got a sinking feeling
'Cause I just want the best for you, I want you to know
That in everything you do, I hope you can grow
Or in other words, hoping you never plateau
And that you let the light in, but you already glow
'Cause I don't wanna see you sad, I don't wanna see you down
I wanna see you happy, I don't wanna see you frown
I hope you get to live the life that you always dreamed of
But remember, I'm still here, if you're ever in need of
Someone to talk to
I hope that you know
What I'm trying to show
And I'm sorry for everything
And I'm wishing you peace
For the pain to release
'Cause the past is in the past
But we have today
