Beard in Headlights Video (MV)

I'm wondering when I keep waking in the same place
Am I bored or just lonely
And how can I get around the fact that I'm barely making progress
How you're slowly losing interest
How I'm selfish and I hate this

Am I in the right mind to work this out
I can't hang with distance, but it's the only measure that finds me now
I'm so cut off from the world and I'll drag you down with me

And I can barely open up. It always blows up in my face
And I keep forgetting that
Or maybe my cynicism keeps me all too aware of what I'm doing wrong
I can't lie. I'll just embrace the facts
The bad habits that I have, the feelings that I trust
They will steer me wrong and it takes too long for me
To finally readjust to get back to where I want
Am I better by myself
I can change my ways or I could stay the same
With my heart up on the shelf

I put in the time
I'm keeping in mind
I won't lose myself tonight
If I've added up all the times that I thought I had it right
What have I got